Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Too much

Right now I'm not in the mood for blogging. I have been feeling very bad with the endometriosis. Sometimes it's bad but sometimes it's even worse. I'm worried all the time because of the pain. Why it is there. I know so little yet of what is going on in my body that I'm starting to picture worse scenarios. Because of this I have trouble sleeping and lots of anxiety. I'm so grateful for my husband who takes such good care of me when I get my panicattacks.

Yesterday I found out that I will not even get an MRI scan. I'm very disappointed that the clinic came to that decision since I have been waiting since July. I'm figuring out how to fight this decision, who to talk to, maybe call the clinic in Stockholm instead. I need this MRI. If so only to calm my mind and to get on paper what's wrong with my body. To not know is driving me insane.

So. Right now it's just a lot going on in my mind. The sparetime I have from work I try to relax, read books and just do fun stuff. So that's why I haven't been so active with blogging or commenting.
I'll be back when my mind is cleared and I hopefully feel like myself again.


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  1. Doctor ZFebruary 3, 2015 at 10:11 PM

    Sending you lots and lots of love, healing energy, and hugs from NYC!

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  2. CrimsonAnnaFebruary 3, 2015 at 10:16 PM

    Kämpa! Klart att du ska ha undersökningen. Jag skickar helande energi och hoppas att det inte tar alltför lång tid innan du hittar tillbaka. Ta hand om dig och låt dig bli omhändertagen =)

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  3. Insomniac's AtticFebruary 4, 2015 at 2:36 AM

    I hope that you can find someone to talk to about getting that decision reversed. You're right - there is nothing worse than not knowing what is happening inside your own body. ♥

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  4. Violette B.February 4, 2015 at 10:12 PM

    I am so sorry to hear about your distress. I do hope you can find a way to solve your problem, dear. Sometimes it can take some time to convince doctors about issues, I have been in your shoes before, so I can tell how frustrating it it.

    I do wish you the best, and all my strength and love are with you ♥

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  5. Ms MisantropiaFebruary 4, 2015 at 11:38 PM

    Jag är ledsen att höra att saker och ting inte går så som du skulle behöva. Det gör mig alltid arg att höra hur kvinnokroppens signaler och problem inte tas på allvar. Hoppas att du mår lite bättre snart!

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  6. Laura MorriganFebruary 5, 2015 at 4:55 AM

    I get rally anxious about health issues too! I guess it can't be that bad if they don't want to do a scan, but fight it if you can! Sending love!

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  7. KarinFebruary 16, 2015 at 11:04 AM

    Hoppas att du mår bättre snart.

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  8. linnea-mariaFebruary 20, 2015 at 2:42 PM

    Fasen, jag blir arg för din skull!! Du lider ju uppenbarligen och behöver vård och undersökningar. Man babblar om att alla människor ska jobba och vara friska men hur sjutton ska man orka om man inte får vården så att man blir frisk. Än idag så hör jag människor fnysa om "kärringsjukdomar" som whiplash och fibro. Det låter helt knasigt men kan du ta med dig Mattias när du går till läkaren? Jag fick sjukskrivning först efter att min sambo ringt och pratat med läkaren (som tyckte att jag skulle ta ut semester för att jag var sjuk) som inte ville sjukskriva mig. Det är inte första gången jag får skyffla fram maken för att ingen vill lyssna på mig :-(

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