A follow-up on things I mentioned earlier in some post..
The job : I love my job . I really do. I feel no anxiety about going there when I wake up and the time just flies by. Of course I don't want to spend the rest of my life doing dishes after old people, but right now it's really a great job to have until I find my dream pastry chef job.
(For those of you who doesn't know , I'm working as an kitchenassistant in a retirement home)
My colleagues are very wonderful also , so much laughter and crazyness <3
The two persons I'm standing next to is not my colleagues though, but we were on a sourdough course from work yesterday and there I got to meet lots of other people who work in the kitchens of Västerås and it was fun :D
Roller Derby: I decided not to try . I may sound boring now but I don't want to leave karate, it's one of the few activities that my darling and I have in common. And even though I find it hard to learn everything, I have been told so many times that I have the right body and agility for karate so I want to give myself the opportunity to be better :) I was thinking of buying rollers later and find some place where I can just roll around a little instead.
Mindfulness : You might remember that my psychologist recommended the mindfulness method for me . But it didn't work at all xD I almost laugh myself to death listening at the CD and become completely restless. Maybe I should try it more times than I did, I do not know, but I 've got so difficult to relax. O.o Also, I do not know if I am so happy with my shrink .. he's not the type who want's to listen to me when I talk , he wants us to try a lot of different methods instead when I think what I do need is to just talk my problems and thoughts away.
The wedding : About 3 months away now : D My dress I ordered is superlovely, I 'm really happy with it. (But you may not see it before my wedding, haha) It's like Lynoire said , sometimes the best purchases is the impulse ones! We've found a band to play the harp at the party and it will be so nice . <3 I 'm really happy that I will soon be Mrs.Wangenfors!
My depression: I've actually been doing quite okay . I thought I would feel worse by working more, but I feel so good at the job so I dont have to worry about getting panicattacks even . The strange thing is that while I generally feel better , I get anxiety attacks more frequently when I 'm out in public now? At least once a week I've had to leave a store or some other place and go sit in the car to hyperventilate . Really strange..