Life plans update!

2014 I published a list with my life plans and goals on my blog. I haven't looked at it much since then. But today I thought I would give it an update, see if I can check anything and also if I wan't to add new things. :D

- Participate in a filming (of a movie or a tv-show)

- Get a tattoo

- Visit Disneyworld or Disneyland (preferably in December)

- Finish my book and get it published

- Learn how to swim

- Visit a spa (X)

- See a burleskshow

- Run a racing jogging (X)

- Have a voice role in a animated movie (This is a hard one!)

- Donate blood 

- Play the game twister but with real, sticky colours as dots!

- Hug Amy lee

- Work at a catshelter

- Visit Italy and try lots of food!

- Celebrate Christmas in another country

- Learn how play the piano

- Become a priest

- Have my own hens and chickens

Comments: Maybe 2 achived in 4 years doesn't seem much but I'm really happy I finally have visited a spa, haha! Last week I also ran that racing jogging together with a collague. :D 

I have tried to donate blood two times but first time my iron level was too low and now I have to wait 2 years because of my cervical lesions.

And I don't know if a really wan't a tattoo anymore?

I really really want to learn how to swim! Maybe I should just go a class for that or something instead of pressuring my husband about it.  

UPDATED LIFEGOAL LIST 2018:

- Participate in a filming (of a movie or a tv-show)

- Get a tattoo (I will consider if I still want this)

- Visit Disneyworld or Disneyland (preferably in December at christmas)

- Finish my book and get it published

- Learn how to swim

- Visit a spa (X)

- See a burleskshow

- Run a racing jogging (X)

- Have a voice role in a animated movie (This is a hard one!)

- Donate blood 

- Play the game twister but with real, sticky colours as dots!

- Hug Amy Lee

- Work at a catshelter

- Visit Italy and try lots of food!

- Celebrate Christmas in another country

- Learn how play the piano

- Become a priest/deacon/or just work in a church!

- Have my own hens and chickens

- Run the color obstacle rush

- Be a fosterparent

- Be good a taking care of plants and flowers! (Ultimate goal, have my own strawberries!)

I have added some and changed some! This time I will write this down in my calendar and really try to achive my goals. 

Challenge day 15, 5 current goals

1. Learn how to swim (first I must get over my fear of water so that is the difficult part of it..)

2. Be less on Facebook. The amount of time I spend scrolling there some days are so ridiculous.

3. Be outside more this spring/summer. Even though I love being inside. :S I feel that I really should collect more D-vitamines during the sunny days, my body needs it!

4. Visit more cafeés! Just because I want to :D

5. Don't buy clothes. I don't usually buy a lot but right now I feel like I dont have the need for any new clothes at all. My wardrobe is very well packed.

Challenge day 14, A song that describes how I feel today

Today feels like a good day!

It's the first day of the 4 day eastervacation, it looks like spring outside and we are going to the cinema to watch Ready player one later today. :D

Challenge day 13, 5 things I do every day

1. Eat candy.
It's true. It might be a bad habit but I don't eat much. A little chocolate or something in the evening makes that day better :D


2. Read
Very important to get to read at least a few pages every day!

3. Kiss my husband and my cats! <3

4. Listen to music
Right now this is my top choice! spotifylink

5. Feel stressed
I feel stressed at least once every day even if I don't have anything to feel stressed about haha!

Challenge day 12, Favourite quotes

1. This first one is the one I like the most. Simple and beautiful.

2. This quote is so me. I don't know what I would do without books! 

3. I use this quote to remind me that I don't need certain people in my life even though we share the same blood. 

4. This quote I have on a mirror at home to keep me motivated for a workout. Sometimes it works and sometimes it don't. I really like the quote though. 

5. I think this quote is beautiful. Maybe it's silly but sometimes it really helps my anxiety to read little lines like this. 

Challenge day 11, What I ate in a day

I haven't been feeling well this week so I didn't blog. I did do this challenge last sunday though. :) 

I chose to do it on a sunday because I didn't want to photograph my food at work, haha!

So this is what I ate the whole day on sunday.

I made scones for breakfast :)

After that I had some candy because I'm worth it!

For lunch I had some leftover sallad from the day before, but added a yoghurt and a kiwi.

I didn't need much for lunch because I had a plan to treat myself with some leftover popcorn from our cinemavisit the day before as well. :D I always buy too much popcorn so I can eat the day after as well.

For dinner I made schnitzel and potato gratin. And added some broccoli! I could eat brocooli every day, it's lovely.

I realized that there isn't any pictures of what I drank! But don't you worry, I drink lots of water everyday, and I also hade a coca-cola can with the popcorns. :D

Challenge day 10, Your latest purchase

I haven't been buying a lot of stuff lately so I was actually a little worried that I wouldn't know what to pick for this entry, but 2 weeks ago I got the idea that I wanted a indoor trampoline!

So I bought one an it's amazingly fun!

As some of you know it's very important for my endometriosis that I workout regularly or else I will have lot of pain. But becuase of my anxiety it has been a rough winter for my body, I haven't been working out as I should. So when I got the idea of a trampoline I felt that if I actually is excited about something, I should go ahead and buy it! 

So now everyday I choose 3 happy songs to jump to! :D 

Challenge day 9, Todays outfit

Because of my current lazy I don't even give a f*ck "style" and the cooold weather which makes it impossible to be excited about clothes I realized that if I waited for a fancy outfit in my life I would never blog again, haha!

So here you have it, todays outfit :'D (or at least my most common eveningoutfit)

Challenge day 8, A dreamjob

This a difficult question actually because it depends on how much you dream :P

On one hand I really would like to work with baking some day again, but if I were to be extremly rich I guess I would start a catshelter, what a dream, working with cats and taking care of them! 

BUT! In my wildest dreams I would be an actor of course, that job seems very very lovely, haha! 

Pictures from 2007 in theatreschool :D When I still thought that I would be an actor someday, haha! 

Challenge day 7, A celebrity crush

Okay I admit it. I only started a blogchallenge to get a reason to write a whole entry about Jamie ;) Maybe... 

So my celebrity crush is Sam Heughan who is playing Jamie in Outlander. 

Like seriously, are you guys seeing this? That man is PERFECT.

I very rarely get celebrity crushes so this one came as a big surprise when I started watching Outlander a month ago. I think a lot of my deep deep love has to do with how the character Jamie are, I think it might be impossible not falling in love with him. But after seeing lots of interviews with Sam Heughan I do think that he in private seems like a very nice person. :) 

If you haven't seen Outlander I truly recommend!

I'm reading the books as well. 

Challenge day 6, Things I love in my closet

This of course changes from time to time, but right now these are my top 3 items in my closet :D

Skeletonsweater! Definitely my most used piece of clothing right now. It's very cold at my job in winter so a sweater is a must to survive! 

Simple black pants. One of my colleagues actually gave them to me 2 weeks ago when she was cleaning out in her closet. I love them! 

Batdress! Most used dress in my wardrobe :)

Challenge day 5, A great memory

One of my dearest memories together with my husband comes to mind. 

It was Metaltown 2010, we are really not concert or festival kind of people but we went there because of Rammstein :D It was in Gothenburg and we had never been there.

We quickly realized that the festivalenvironment made us really stressed. So instead of hustling around there we went around town! We LOVED Gothenburg, it was so pretty and all the people seemed so calm even though they live in such a big town. We went to movies, ate pizza and just had a really awesome time.
We did see Rammstein and that was wonderful too, but that was the only band we really saw, haha!

We ended up spending an extra night in Gothenburg because we wanted to relax and see more of the town.
It's just such a great memory for me, the whole weekend was so cozy, fun and I think that hotel had the greatest bed I ever slept in as well. Sometimes when I'm really stressed out I think about that lovely little trip we had :D

Challenge day 4, My favourite beautyproducts

Since I'm not that really into regular beautystuff (haven't used makeup in 5 years I think!) I wasn't sure to have this in the list. But maybe this will be fun anyway :D I do have some tips&tricks heheheee.

You don't look this flaaawless by doing nothing right!

(Actually I'm to lazy to do anything most days, but I try okay)

Number 1, 

Alepposoap! 

This is a soap made by oil. My cats love to cuddle with it for some reason. O.o

I use it after dyeing my hair, it takes away colour from the body, like if you've gotten some on the neck,ears, face and so on. Works so great!

Number 2,

More oils. 

These are oils. Almond oil and argan oil. I use them as hair masks. Just smear in your hairtips and frizzy parts an hour or two before washing it and your hair feels so so fresh.

Number 3, 

Facewater. 

Sometimes when I feel like it I wash my face with facewater I bought from lush. It smells nice and feels nice.

Number 4, 

Aloe Vera gel,

 is some good shit right here. I use this for like everything. Shaved your legs and it itches? Have some aloe vera! Burned your hand on the oven? Have some aloe vera! Is your dandruff making your scalp itch? Have some aloe vera! Wan't to look forever young? Have some aloe vera! (Joking aside, I did read somewhere that aloe vera prevents wrinkles, I don't know if it's true though, I'll be back with a review in 10 years I guess?)

What is your favourite beautyproducts?

Challenge day 3, A fear

I am great at fear. I wish I wasn't. I'm afraid of SO.MANY,THINGS.
But I feel that I should pick one for this entry and I will choose cancer.
I have been afraid of cancer since I was 7 years old when my uncles wife died from breastcancer.
My last memory of her was when we met her buying ice-cream, she was bald and looked so tired and explained to my mum that ice-cream was the only thing she didn't puke after eating. Not so long after that she passed away.

And after that I have had this fear of getting that sick. I'm not afraid of dying but I'm very scared of slowly dying in pain. So that's my biggest fear of them all. I always check for weird bumps on my body, I don't know how many times my husband has had to calm me down when I think I have something weird going on.
The past 2 years I have been going to the doctors a lot because of my cervical lesions/abnormalities (don't really know what it is in english??) which makes my hypochondria sooo much worse. I'm so scared every time I get the letter from the hospital.

I really hope my whole life won't be like this, sometimes I'm scared that I will get cancer just because I have been "expecting" it my whole life. Yup, I'm a real psycho.

Challenge day 2, 5 favourite songs right now

I found this girl on youtube (link) who is both a singer and a vlogger. She makes awesome music so right now my top 2 songs are hers. :)

I made all the titles spotifylinks.

1. Emma Blackery - Nothing without you

2. Emma Blackery - The promise

3. The Chainsmokers - You owe me

4. Walk off the earth - A hard rain's gonna fall

5. Christina Perri - Human

What are your favourite song right now? I really wan't to know because I'm always looking for new music. Music is healing my soul <3

I prefer to listen in my huge headphones. I think it adds a lot to the feeling. 

Challenge day 1, About my blog

I started blogging "for real" in august 2010 at my old blog lesthi.blogg.se

I looked like this:

I blogged in Swedish about shopping. I wasn't very rich so I blogged about what I wanted to buy mostly, haha! The blog for me was like pinterest is today. :) The blogname I chose because Lesthi has been my internetname since 2004 when a friend suggested it for me as a female version of the vampirename Lestat. I loved it! Sometimes it feels more like my name than my real name Sabina?!
In March 2012 I started to upload mostly outfits which gave me more followers :D

So the next month I started blogging in english because I realized that most of my readers were from all over the world and not Sweden and I wanted to communicate better.

October 2012 I moved from blogg.se to blogspot instead, very vice choice! 

It's been a great time here these 5 years! 

I have made friends, some of my readers I really see as friends I wish to meet irl someday. My blog have changed a lot through the years, at the start it was mostly about clothes, as I've said before I was way more gothic before than I am now so I might have lost some followers when I drifted away in style. But I have also shared a lot about personal struggles, anxiety and my endometriosis. And I'm so thankful for all the comfort and help I've gotten <3 

I hope that I still have some readers left here that want to join me for my 15 day blog journey here where I try to find my love for blogging again :D

I challenge myself!

I want to blog more but I'm also too lazy to blog more.
The social media channels nowadays are annoying me A LOT.
Facebook: Random shit in my feed that a friends friend to a friend liked. And advertising. And advertising.
Instagram: For every picture from a friends there is at least 5 ads. And the "suggestions" that I couldn't care less about. And I hate the fact that the pictures doesn't come in the correct order. Instead of seeing the picture a friend uploaded right now I see a picture from 5 days ago at the top. BAH!

A picture of me and my cat to make you stay and read the rest of my angry entry.

There is this new app now called Vero which seem to be like instagram but without ads. But I don't feel like installing it yet. I'm so tired of changing the channel for my memories all the time if you know what I mean. Everything is so split up, the social media channels are only popular for a few years because everyone levaes when it gets too much advertising (as do I) I thought today that I wish there were a place that I could see what I did 5 years ago.I place that I always would have. I realized that I do have this. My blog :D So I should definitely start blogging more again and keep making memories here for the future me to read.

So I decided to create a blogchallenge for myself :D
Because March is starting tomorrow and to get used to blogging again I feel like I need something fun to do. So the challenge will be a 15 day of blogging kind of thing. (I thought of 30 first but 15 feels better to start with)
If someone wan't do join this with me do tell!
Let's do this, yeah!

The darkling tag

I was tagged by MsMisantropia and it is indeed time for me to show some apperance on my blog so :'D

THE DARKLING TAG!

What is your favourite candle scent? I always buy scented candles at IKEA and my favourite is apple!
Do you have a favourite book? Anne of green gables will always have a special place in my heart.
Are you a tea or coffee person? Neither.
What is your favourite perfume/cologne? Britney Spears Fantasy. It smells absolutely fabolous!
Do you have a celebrity crush? Well, I guess Amy Lee still after all these years. :) But right now I have huge crush on Callie Torres in Grey's Anatomy.
If you could change your name to a stereotypical 90s/2000s gothy name, what would it be? Never have I ever heard of such a gothic name, haha! My blogname Lesthi I chose as my "webname" already in 2004 though and I still really like it. It's like a female version of Lestat was my thoughts back then :P
What are your top three tips for surviving hot weather while black clad? Not going out? Heh.
What song always makes you happy (doesn’t have to be a goth band?) Such a night with Elvis Presley.
Are you active in the arts (eg. Play an instrument, paint, write, etc)? No not really right now. To lazy and angsty.
What is your number one non-gothy hobby? What is a gothy hobby even? I like couple dance and I guess that's not so gothy O.o


Thought Provokers:
If you could be a supernatural creature, what would it be and why? Mermaid. I love mermaids. I'm sure that somewhere deep in the sea there are a beautiful place for mermaids. I think that have always imagined a mermaid life to be less stressful than this life or something. :'D
What horror monster-bases super power would you have? Can I simply choose to be a waterbender while being a mermaid? xD
Do you feel confident or comfortable interacting with other Goths or gothy people (online or irl)? Why or why not? Hmm. I guess I actually feel that I'm not goth enough. I wouldn't even call myself a goth right now. But if people are kind and not judgy I never have a problem.
Is there something you wish there was more of in your subculture? Haven't thought about it.
Care to share an embarrassing story related to your “darkliness”? The most embarrasing part must be how my eyebrows looked like in my most gothy days! Haha!

That megalong eyebrows

How are you at DIY? I would say good :D

Confessional (aka True or False):
I love watching cheese romance films. TRUE!
I ALWAYS remember to wash off my makeup at night. Never wear makeup so yes? :'D
I sleep with plushies. True!
I wear non-black pyjamas most nights. True. I wear whatever comfortable.
I think Andrew Eldrich is overrated. Who :P
I don’t like vampires. False.
I don’t like clubs. I don't know, I don't think I ever been to one.
I don’t enjoy graveyards. True
Blood makes me queasy. False
I’d sooner faint than pet a spider. False
I don’t like haunted houses. False.
I’ve never read Dracula. True! I have it but haven't read it yet D:
I think “Bela Lugosi’s Dead” is a long and boring song. I only heard CHVRCHES version and yeah it's quite boring.


I'm now supposed to tag 3 people and I hope they haven't already been tagged :) Sarah, CrimsonAnna and Phantomcat

A tv-serie quiz!

This quiz have been floating around in the swedish blogosphere so when CrimsonAnna also did it I decided to translate it and do it here! Because of my love for tv-series <3
I would love if you readers would want to answer in your blog or in a comment as well!

(sorry if some of the english isn't correct, haha, never been skilled at grammar!)

1. Favorite tv friendship? 

Joey and Chandler from Friends! No doubt :D

2. Best opening theme

I don't watch this serie anymore but it's still my favorite intro! 

3. Favorite 90-s serie
Could say Friends here but Sabrina The teenage witch is also so so good! When I was 13 I used to see an episode on tv each night and wear my hair like Sabrina the next day :D

4.  Funniest tv-show 
This is so hard. There are so many that is very funny worth mentioning like The middle, Melissa and Joey, Ugly Betty, Rita Rocks, Modern family. But in the end I don't think anything will ever be as good as Friends really!

5. If you could change something in a tv-serie, what would it be?
Liv and Major in Izombie would never break up!

6. The worst ending
I think many people are saying the same here. How I met your mother ended very disappointing.

7. If you could only watch one tv-serie for the rest of your life, which one would it be?
I hate this question, haha! Since I really love finding new things to watch. I'm choosing between Sex and the City and Friends. But I think Friends is the safer pick.

8. A tv-serie you look forward too.
In January a new season of Switched at birth is coming! I have been waiting more than a year now. It will be the final season but I'm still so excited!

9. One tv-serie you wish you had never seen
Well sometimes I wish I hadn't found About a boy because it only got 2 seasons and i still miss it! Not even a proper ending.

10.  The most scary character

Negan from The Walking Dead. I'm so scared every episode that he will be in it. xD