Right now I'm not in the mood for blogging. I have been feeling very bad with the endometriosis. Sometimes it's bad but sometimes it's even worse. I'm worried all the time because of the pain. Why it is there. I know so little yet of what is going on in my body that I'm starting to picture worse scenarios. Because of this I have trouble sleeping and lots of anxiety. I'm so grateful for my husband who takes such good care of me when I get my panicattacks.
Yesterday I found out that I will not even get an MRI scan. I'm very disappointed that the clinic came to that decision since I have been waiting since July. I'm figuring out how to fight this decision, who to talk to, maybe call the clinic in Stockholm instead. I need this MRI. If so only to calm my mind and to get on paper what's wrong with my body. To not know is driving me insane.
So. Right now it's just a lot going on in my mind. The sparetime I have from work I try to relax, read books and just do fun stuff. So that's why I haven't been so active with blogging or commenting.
I'll be back when my mind is cleared and I hopefully feel like myself again.