When I started blogging 6 years ago it was very much about the gothic style. I was very very into it back then, so when I switched blogdomain 2011 I started to call my blog Lesthis gothworld as many of you know.
The last 2 years I have felt that I haven't lived up to that name. I have honestly felt like a hypocrit, like when people visit my blog they expect to see some sort of gothqueen, which I definitly wouldn't call myself nowadays. Over the years I have been feeling uncomfortable in some sort of clothes. Like I'm too dressed up. So without even thinking about it, I started to tone the gothic down when it came to clothes and jewelry because I felt more comfortable that way.
I still mostly wear black clothes, I don't think that will ever change. And I do like what one would call an "alternative" style. My home will probably also always look like a halloween store but Lesthis gothworld just doesn't feel like me so that why I now have changed my blogname to just Lesthi's instead :) It feels like a relief, I should have done it a long time ago.
I definitly think that goth is something with a wide range and that there aren't any specific rules about how to look goth. But still, I'm pretty sure that people wouldn't describe me as that anymore, maybe weird/odd or something but not goth. And I don't want the pressure to look like something. I just wanna be me. :)
What do you think about this? I know I have many gothreaders. What do you define as goth and would you call your style goth?
Honestly, that comes as a surprise :-)
ReplyDeleteYou always seemed very goth to me and you still do, but putting a label to something is never easy and you should do what you feel most comfortable with.
My style is definitely not goth anymore (sometimes I am shocked to see how little black is left in my everyday-closet and I am working on it to change that), therefore people are often irritated when they hear that I listen to gothic music and only party in goth clubs. So I still feel much "blacker" than I do look on the outside.
No matter what you call your blog, I will keep reading it.
love, ette
Thank you! I think I compare myself too much with those people who puts very much effort into their looks with makeup and hairdos. I am so lazy when it comes to outfits :P
DeleteIt's same for me, I listen to gothmusic and love gothinterior.
I'm glad to hear that you will still read my blog ^_^
I've spent years trying to define Goth, roaming goth forums and reading books on the topic, to finally discover that when I do dress gothy I'm just a "nu goth" coz I don't listen to the music and many goths will tell you it's all about the music which I think is not fair coz there's also goth literature and movies...anyway, you can just call yourself "alternative" and not labelling yourself a particular style. This being said, I love your world and outfits!
ReplyDeleteYes exactly, I think alternative is very good and wide word to use ^_^ Thank you so much for your comment and for sharing your thoughts!
DeleteJag förstår precis din känsla, i och med att jag märker att jag klär mig mindre och mindre hårdrockigt. Å andra sidan, min klädstil var ganska lika din ett tag och då fick jag en av de finaste komplimangerna jag har fått-att jag lyckades balansera vuxet och metal på ett snyggt sätt. Jag tror att goth alltid kommer att ha en plats i ditt liv så länge du vill, det kanske bara är på ett annat sätt än nu. Och goth eller inte, jag blir kvar som läsare, för jag gillar dig.
ReplyDeleteJa jag tror verkligen inte att jag kommer släppa det helt nån gång eftersom jag redan är uppe i 12 år utav svarta kläder. Jag tycker verkligen stilen är vacker men det extrema passar bättre på andra än mig :D Vad bra att du hänger kvar ändå! ^_^ <3
DeleteI love your style and it looks right for you. Your blog is just called Lesthi now so I guess it doesn't matter? One can go mad trying to define oneself
ReplyDeleteThank you! My entrys will still be the same, but now I feel more free or something :'D
DeleteGoth för mig är svart, svart, svart :p svarta katter, allt halloween och allt creepy. Första bilden på dig här uppe skriker goth - för mig! :)
ReplyDeleteMen jag tycker nog fortfarande att detta är en goth blogg, men det är helt olika i allas ögon tror jag. Trivs du bättre med detta namnet så fine, det är fortfarande du och din blogg :D
Ja första bilden är från den perioden då jag kände mig som mest goth :D
DeleteJag känner mig mer bekväm att ta bort gothworld just eftersom att allas uppfattning är så olika, och om jag inte ens själv ser mig som goth riktigt så känns det fel att ha ett sånt namn xD
I think people tend to put too much pressure on themselves through labels. My personal opinion is one should always feel free from those, and act as they please. A person is a complex experience of tastes, philias and phobias, so reducting yourself to just a tag is as much as trying to place a polyhedron into a square shaped box.
ReplyDeleteYes that is very true, I guess everyone just wants to feel included somewhere.
DeleteI completely agree with what the other said about labels, but it's not all that easy to strip yourself from all the tags that have help you so much to identify yourself somehow...Some of us are still ashamed to be just ourselves...
ReplyDeleteDespite wearing black, I am certainly not a goth anymore either; in fact, I've just realized that I have lost my sense of style completely...seeing all those visual key and pastel goth kids at the convention last weekend, I thought they looked cool, but I definitely don't want to look like them anymore...But on the other hand, I'm starting to feel a little lost; clothing has always been some kind of a defensive wall I built around myself and now, that I'm absolutely not interested in dresing up anymore and can't even force myself to do it, I feel a lot more insecure...
I totally understand how you feel! I follow so many gothsites on tumblr, and even though the people look so so pretty I really feel that I wouldn't wanna wear that stuff anymore. But yes, it's very confusing with clothings nowadays because of this. For very long I have bought clothings that I fitted in with my previous style, but then regretted it because I don't even like wearing it. So I guess it will take some time to find what the new style will be O.o I hope you will feel more confident soon, I do think you look really nice in everything you have had on pictures on your blog :D
DeleteI can relate a lot to what you have said! I identify as goth but I stopped wanting to dress up as much about two years ago. I want freedom more than anything else! Some days I look more gothy and some days I really don't but inside I'm still me. For me I think I'll always vie myself as a goth but I'm a lot of other things too. Im seeing the wisdom in avoiding labels and just being yourself! Less pressure, more creative and expressive freedom!
ReplyDeleteI think its important to remember also that those people who are very dedicated to the style are more the minority. There are a lot of casual goths out there, some who don't even dress up a lot but for whom goth is a part of who they are!
I love that photo of you with your kitty :)
Yes! Since I have had had this "gothstamp" for so long I can even get a comment from people on my clothes if they are not gothic enough in their eyes and I don't want that. I think it's better to not define myself into any style right now when I'm so confused :P
DeleteYes I think that is true.